Yes that name badge has been altered to say “Sexual being”. That is what happens when you let Annie near your name badge with a biro.
It was Sunday morning at about 11.30 that it hit me. That I realised I had me a bad case of the post Britmums Blues.
We had gone to TK Maxx to spend the gift card they had put in the goodie bag we received at the end of BritmumsLive. Mr B hadn’t been to TK Maxx before and after I went last week to review it, and had raved ever since, we decided to brave Farnborough Gate on a Sunday morning for him to nose around.
Costa was first as we hadn’t been very organised and had left the house without even having a cup of tea. I still had some “Pop Money” (Mr B likes to know I have enough money to have a good time when I go to Britmums so gives me money for pop) left over so decided to treat him to a toasted sandwich too. You know, really push the boat out and blow £12 on a breakfast.
So I stood and waited to one side of the queue as our sandwiches were cooked.
I looked at people in the queue. I smiled at them. They didn’t smile back.
I looked at people sitting eating their breakfast. Drinking their coffees. Many in silence.
And then it hit me
It hit me that nobody knew who I was. Nobody cared. Nobody cared about anything or anyone else. Nobody was rushing up to me and giving me a hug. I wasn’t throwing my arms around people and shouting “I bloody love you and I am so pleased we finally got to meet”. That I wasn’t at the Brewery anymore. A place like Cheers where everyone knows your name.
Nobody was stopping me and saying “Congratulations” / “loved your talk” / “can I photograph your shoes?” / “would love to talk to you about follow and no follow links” / “Can’t believe you put your arse on your blog” / “it’s you!!!”. Where I was doing the same.
I was back to being the tubby, middle aged housewife again. Back to being anonymous. Funny how my avatar was chosen because on the internet I wanted to be anonymous. I didn’t want people to know who I am.
Yet in reality, on the internet people DO know who MummyBarrow is. That mad crazy woman with far too much to say.
In reality that people in the real world have no idea who Tanya Barrow is.
Britmums Live 2013 was over.